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[It wouldn't be great if Jyushi started crying, but at least it would provide Ichiro an excuse to stop talking about this. As cowardly as that would be.

Jyushi says the magic word though. Family. Ichiro had even thought it himself just before, but hearing the other boy say it really makes it stick. They're a family too and... He's been thinking about this purely from his own perspective. What he did wrong. His feelings.

And while talking about it will be difficult, and maybe even pointless when he doesn't have any more answers than he did back then, maybe he and Hitoya can figure some things out. It's the least he can do.

Ichiro brushes his hair back.] Right. I'll think about it. I'll message him. [Later. When he's had more time to process this.

And...]

Is he okay? Kuko? Is he happy?

[Oh. That question hits Jyushi right to the core. Ichiro had really cared about Kuko and it shows. Somebody wouldn't say that, ask that, if they didn't care. What happened between these two? Jyushi has no idea but it doesn't seem like Ichiro could have ever done something wrong. But Jyushi also knows that he shouldn't make assumptions. People can surprise you. Still, Ichiro cares about Kuko and there is that much. Despite whatever happened.

So Jyushi nods.]

I think so. But there's a lot about Kuko-san that I don't know. There's stuff he kind of keeps to himself and I can't say I know a lot about him at all. I just know the Kuko now, who is trying his hardest to make a good team. I think he likes being our leader and is really happy to be doing this.

[Jyushi bows once more.]

I'm very sorry for not talking about this until now. I found out last month but...I was scared to tell you something I knew wouldn't make you happy. I didn't want to hurt you. That's still no excuse, though. Everybody deserves the truth.

[That's something that Jyushi believes in wholeheartedly. It had never been his intention to hide things from Ichiro but he knows that's what he inadvertently did.

He stands straight and looks Ichiro in the eye.]

I should go now. I know I told you a lot that you need to be able to take in. Um. I'll leave you alone for the time being. There's no pressure to talk to me soon or ever again. Hitoya-san probably won't wait very long. If you make him wait too long he'll say something like "Young brats thinking they can make an adult wait". But he means well and he's a good person who helps people every day. I hope he can help you.

Edited 2022-02-11 18:44 (UTC)

[Ichiro hears everything Jyushi's saying, but one thing sticks out to him that he has to immediately address.]

Don't - Don't be stupid! I'll talk to you again. I'm not going to just stop talking to a friend like that, and I'm not going to forget what you said!

[There's even a part of Ichiro that doesn't want Jyushi to leave. Because be left alone with this hurt may not be the best idea. But he's absolutely right. He needs to think about this and his feelings and he probably wont be the best of company why he does so. Plus, he thinks Jyushi needs some time to himself too.

He can hear it in his voice: how difficult it must have been to carry this information around and then to be able to tell him. Ichiro hopes Jyushi knows just how strong he really is.]

But yeah... you're right. I need some time to take this all in.

[Ichiro says they're still friends after this and Jyushi knows he has to take comfort in that. If this is what Ichiro says then he will believe in him. Besides, he knows Ichiro wouldn't do that. Jyushi knows that much about the other even if they've only spent time with each other for a few months.

He nods, smiling softly.]

Okay. When you want to talk, you can reach out. No matter how long, the bridge won't be burned, okay?

[Ichiro practically sags with relief. This entire conversation has been rough but that, at least, is reassuring. He can't lose someone else.

He offers a small smile back.]

Right. Thanks, Jyushi.

[Really.]

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